A flicker

Here I am, but a flicker of light in this dark world. These days the darkness in my life has become unavoidable. For a long time, I wassurrounded by light and joy. Now I have been thrust into deep darkness. You know the kind when the electricity goes out and all of a sudden the concept that yourhand is waving in front of your face mere inches away is disturbingly avasive.

I have been working on being an encourager. Helping others. Being a beacon of light in hard times and yet my hope dwindles. My flickering flame is but a speck being blown at from all angles.I fight for my faith truly grasping the verses that talk about holding on to our faith. I believe in a God bigger and stronger. That can heal by a single word and restore the most broken, but I am weary. I pray and seek, longing to be faithful, but I'm losing hope.

Tonight was the first time I think in my life that I said to myself that maybe it's time to let go of this hope. I hate that! I love the lord and love to be a part but my faith has been rocked to the core. The tempests have come and are demolishing already ruins. How long Lord? How long?

I continue to believe that my prayers will be heard and that the Lord is fighting on my behalf, I just would like a chance to tap out of this battle for a bit and relax. God, I will wait. You are faithful though I am wavering.

My word for the year: RESTORATION