disappointed

Today was a difficult day at church. The service was mainly about justifying why the church does things the way they do, which is good to inform that congregation of, but is it necessary for an actual service? I know that church is not about me and that there are going to be times when I am challenged on what I believe, but when the sermon seems to be more of a soap box that is riddled with judgement rather than love, it is hard. I'm not saying the pastor doesn't love his congregation, rather quite the opposite, but when you put down others to show that love....well, it seems the bible is getting left in the dust.

Maybe, I'm just over sensitive or lack insight, but I felt a bit overwhelmed and offended by the message. My way of the highway seemed about the gist of the message. I am thankful for the opportunity to go to church freely and worship the Lord, but I am seeking a place of community. A place full of all ages, with experience to learn from and people that stretch you beyond what you think feasible. I want a place where I can be filled and poured out. where I leave feeling challenged in my faith to go home and search the scriptures.

So far, I have not found that church and there is no perfect church. I am thankful that I have options in which church I attend. I am truly blessed by this freedom. I will begin praying that the Lord move me to a church where I will have a purpose and be able to do His will to the best of my capability. Hope.